might this be a real update? naaah.

Fasten your seatbelts, exalted ladies and gentlemen.

I am, in fact, making a xanga entry after many moons of absence.

What have I been up to? Not a whole lot, although quite a few things have happened to me and because of me. And that's not really meant to be negative. Anyway, God. Is. Good. No, scratch that. God is abundantly full of amazing and wonderful things which do not seem very wonderful as they happen to us, but in retrospect are very much worth going through. I have realized I should not worry about my so-called "maturity" right now. I am the age I should be, none older or younger. It is so easy to get caught up in wanting to be/look/act/portray yourself as older than you are, especially for girls...at least until we hit 29 or so, and that is when younger starts becoming more popular. But, God has not looked-over something in His creation. I find it hard to believe He happens to see me and thinks to Himself, "My, what a great job Gillian is doing of being older than she is! I can't believe I didn't notice that she was the wrong age myself! Way to fix my slip, Gillian!" Really. Come on now. But isn't that what we're doing when we act up or down, age wise? Not to say being mature for your age is bad, or that it isn't fun for people to say, "How old are you? 25?" but we should not strive for that, or put extraneous effort into it. Enjoy being young. Who, honestly, needs a relationship at our age? Aren't you a fabulous enough person without a significant other...or is that what makes YOU significant? To the other extreme, I was wishing I could be a couple years younger the other day, just so I could not waste a year or two and, you know, not have the problems (or are they merely trifles?) that I have now. Either way, if you it would really benefit you and/or you needed to be another age, God could very easily skip a couple years for ya. And how often does that happen? So, maybe, just maybe, we're exactly the age we should be at this point in our lives. That definitely doesn't mean we're in the place or relationship with Christ we should be, but He has before ordained that this age would serve us best to go through the things we are going through at this time.

With that in mind:

"Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;

    all the stages of my life were spread out before you,

    The days of my life all prepared

    before I'd even lived one day." Psalms 139:16

Comfort, comfort.

Like I said above, this was an entry. Not an update. Ha! I continue to elude you by not telling you details about my life activities.

Anyway, be blessed, search for God, and you will find Him. He might even find you.

Con Amor,

gillian

You have longed for sweet peace,
And for faith to increase,
And have earnestly, fervently prayed;
But you cannot have rest,
Or be perfectly blest,
Until all on the altar is laid.

Is your all on the altar of sacrifice laid?
Your heart does the Spirit control?
You can only be blest,
And have peace and sweet rest,
As you yield Him your body and soul.

Would you walk with the Lord,
In the light of His Word,
And have peace and contentment always?
You must do His sweet will,
To be free from all ill,
On the altar your all you must lay.

O we never can know
What the Lord will bestow
Of the blessings for which we have prayed,
Till our body and soul
He doth fully control,
And our all on the altar is laid.

Who can tell all the love
He will send from above,
And how happy our hearts will be made,
Of the fellowship sweet
We shall share at His feet,
When our all on the altar is laid.

Wow. That's deep.

Alrighty. It's the moment you've been waiting for. I am offering to make you something special and... -drumroll- GILLIANIZED! If you are interested in this once-in-a-life-time opportunity, leave a link to the picture you want GILLIANIZED in a commen.t. First come, first served, one per person, please.

Now kids, everyone will have their chance to own a unique GILLIANIZATION. So don't delay! Leave me your picture and I'll get on it.

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In other news, my mouth is still recuperating. I think I pulled a stitch out on Friday. Oops.

I can't play until at least next Thursday, because my dentist says I can still get dry socket. AHHH, the agony. Doc has to check my mouth Thursday and give the all-clear before I can do anything.

I got my wisdom teeth out, if you didn't know. At least I have a nice fullll bottle of pain pills. No, they don't affect me at all... :)

Did you know that chocolate pudding is deliciously substantial when you can't eat solids and just gotta kinda swallow food? Yeah, it's the best. I've been living off Sprite(so much for no carbonation), pudding, applesauce, rainbow noodles, and baked potatoes all mashed up and covered with butter. Mmm. Not so bad, having gaping holes in my mouth.

I'm sure you all have been enthralled by this update of Gillian's Wisdom Teeth Removal 101. Well, I need to go ice my aching jaw or something similar to that. OH yeah, summer league last night was fun to watch. And we only have 3 official "new" girls. And we're playing in a JV highschool league. And we're all 14 and under. But that's okay, we put the stomping on CCS last night, thanks to my great cheering/coaching from the bench. Lol.

I'm outie. Have a great week. Oh, you may send me chocolate pudding and get well cards if you want. :)

Hello.

I'm about to die.

*too much cookie dough* *not enough...ummm...real food*

Okay, so, I've been terribly awful about updating this thing. Ha, I don't even refer to it by a name anymore. See, I'm a bad caretaker of websites. Anyhow, if I haven't c.ommented on your xanga lately, it in no way, shape, or form means that I don't love you. Busy-ness has just taken over my life. Kinda like the Darkside. Speaking of being busy, I bet I end up working at the state capitol someday. Just wait, I'll be passing bills before you know it. Either that or teaching origami to nursing home dependents. Yes, a bright future ahead. So this post is merely babble about nothing. What I'm saying is, don't feel neglected or unloved if I haven't given you "e-props" lately (since when is love determined by technological c.omments and favors? Oh my, society these days). We'll see about getting a meaningful post in soon.

I'm off to Cache Oklahoma tonight to teach dance. Yehaw. My years of dance finally pay off... Well, its fun anyway.

Remember- God's plan is high above our ways. Have you noticed that in nearly every verse in the Bible, He makes His sovreignty known? Like a reminder that even as He punishes, even as He chatises, there is always the opportunity to come back to His wide-open arms because with His power He has every right to welcome us back. Think about it.

And now for a favorite Psalm of the moment:

"As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for You, O God.

My soul thirsts for God, the Living God. When can I go and meet with Him?

My tears have been my food, day and night, while these men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"

Take courage, O my soul! Do you remember those times? But how could you forget? You led a great procession to the temple, singing with joy to God for all He has done with the multitudes.

Why then be downcast, my soul? Why are you so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God! For I will yet praise Him again, my Savior and my God. My soul is downcast within me, therefore I will remember You and your kindness from the land of Jordan, the heights of Hermon-from Mount Mizar.

Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls; all your waves have swept over me.

BUT! Day by day the Lord pours out His love upon me, and through the night I sing songs to God who gives me life." Psalms 42:1-8

Nothing has any right to make your day a bad day unless you allow it. You are highly-favored children of the Lord, so start claiming it and putting it to use. You can make your day a good day. If you're utterly confused or you want to know more, email me. gigis_island@yahoo.com

Food for thought. Be blessed, people.